Halloween! My folks get into this...90 yr old pop with stupid hat on scarin the kids...funny..Mom complimenting the kids on their costumes..then talkin about how cute they all were...very sweet.

I lost the compassion for holidays after I lost my kids. God I remember how cute Sarah was in her little outfits! We had so much fun...and then Christmas too..

I consciously made the decision to leave the kids and wife...I say to you now: be careful of your decisions thru your Ego. They may leave you utterly empty at times...and all you will be left with is your Ego and an empty heart. When I was 40 I wanted to marry a family. It was too late for me. I committed ( against my heart ) to a co-dependent relationship that would last 25 years. When I woke up all was changed...and not for the better. Or so I thought...

Every so often I sit here ( and in other places ) and cry my eyes out. They are tears of regret and the knowledge that I could have made so many different choices in my life...so many. Damn...if I could just go back and try it again..it would be different. Of course it would not. But we do like to think it would be. I am finding that to go back is silly and serves only your Ego. To go forward with Love and Forgiveness is the way...and man is it tough sometimes...especially on Halloween.